Category Archives: Self Love

Why You Should Forgive Someone When You Don’t Want To

IMG_6728I know, I know. You’re most likely thinking you are the one who has been wronged and need an apology not the other way round. And, most likely, you’re right.  But (you knew it was coming), victim and victimizer are like a see-saw. We know how to play both roles.

This article will help you get relief. By this time in life, you probably have a story about the time(s) when you were wronged. It could be when you were abused or treated unfairly by people you love or harassed at work. Fill in you blank. We all have an inner story like this.

  •  Who do you blame for these feelings?
  • In your mind, how do you talk to this person?
  • If you blame yourself, how to you talk to yourself?

If it’s someone else you blame, you should know they may never apologize. The solution is not to get them to apologize. The solution is to forgive them anyway in order to be free. Break out of the prison of victimhood. Forgive so that you can get past where you’re stuck and quit telling the same old stories that bind you to people who have wronged you.

Think of a person you don’t want to forgive. Question your belief about what forgiveness means. It is not excusing their wrong. Question your belief about the influence of your life, such as “I’m this way because of what happened to me, because he/she cheated.” Is that really true? Or is it an excuse? Or maybe to let go of the excuse means your story/life has to change.

It’s not easy. Childhood hurts lodge themselves in the brain that change our views and behaviors. Mirror neurons pick up what someone puts out and other people pick up what we put out. If the feedback loop is, say distrustful, you will see that in others and they will feel it about you. That’s enough to make an effort to do some personal development work aimed toward feeling positive and free.

There are 3 levels of forgiveness.

The first one is practice. It’s like what we tell our children to say when they take another child’s toy, “Say, I’m sorry.” In grown-up talk, it’s “sorry about that, etc.” We’re not really feeling sorry, we just say we’re sorry. It’s a start. It’s part of the human ritual.

The second level requires thoughtful inquiry. We become psychologically engaged to figure out what we’re feeling and whether or not the other person actually meant to hurt you.

The third level may surprise you. Your heart can be opened by grace, compassion, seeing the nature of humankind or many other experiences that increase your awareness of oneness.

Counseling, meditation, and yoga are pathways to forgiveness. So is confession, the 5th step in the substance abuse 12-step program, and talking to your best friend. My favorite pathway is writing. Therapeutic writing allows you to feel your way through this process and you can refer back to it later to see your progress.

Why is this important? Because you are important. It’s unhealthy to harbor grudges, stuff feelings, or act-out unexamined beliefs. This can create disease, obesity, loneliness, and a bitter attitude toward life in general. If you’ve ever smoked, drank, or eaten too much because of feelings, you remember how good that felt in the moment but how bad it felt moments later.

We all need to start over sometimes. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying you don’t need to communicate your feelings to someone who’s hurt you. But, you have to start with you first. The person you most need to forgive may be yourself.

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How to Develop an Intimate Relationship with Your Body

In this article, I discuss one perspective on the intimate relationship we have with our bodies, particularly weight. It is a mundane topic but one that graces the cover of almost every magazine in the grocery store check-out line and many ads on TV.  Like many of us, I grapple with the problems and attitude that intrudes into day-to-day life and causes us to act on impulse and desire. Happiness will never come from grasping and yet, what are we to do? Give up? No. Give in. Give in to the situation and make it better.

Consider the benefits of becoming intimate with your body. All of it. It’s size, age, beauty and flaws. The parts that hurt and the parts you like are all part of the weight. Weight is more than a number. I’m not saying numbers are meaningless. Far from it. Numbers give us direction. But, there is so much more than body mass that makes up the number we see on the scale.

Just like when you are in relationships with others, intimacy has to do with seeing yourself in others and feeling they are “like me.” Your identity is not challenged and you are not disturbed by what others think or feel about you. But, when there is a disconnect with identity, perhaps weight, you look in the mirror and think, “This is not me.” But, you need to look deeper to find out why you are feeling the disconnect. Is it because there is a true gap between the person you see in the mirror and who you are inside? Or is it because you think you need to be someone else to make others happy?

We don’t want others to see us as overweight. We care what they think about us because we are always thinking about ourselves, rather than the other person. We become self-conscious. In Buddhism, the second noble truth shows us that the source of suffering comes from desire and excessive focus on self. We want something outside ourselves to fix it.  It could be a person or the latest diet pill.

When I think of how many people are unhappy about their weight, I feel very sad at how weight has become the focus and such a big marker for happiness. Some may be teased by others, are internally traumatized by it, or are physically sick from it.

I’d like to raise awareness that a perfect weight is NOT the goal, or a reason to become self-critical. Knowing if you truly do want to lose weight and why is the goal.

If you are happy in your own skin, that’s all that matters! If you’re not, ask yourself why. Become more aware of how you are talking to yourself about your body. Lighten up. Make a list of the things you love about yourself. Drop the criticisms and create an action plan to bridge the gap if there is one In meditation, hold your body in totality. Try to not celebrate gaining or losing pounds. It’s distracting from the joy of living.